Murphy loves me!

Well, first off, the stupid accusation of accademic misconduct has still not been resolved. That's really stressing the hell out of me. (Implimenting Murphy's laws #2"Everything takes longer than you think.").
Next, the Lab Methods midterm was surprisingly difficult. I walked into the midterm believing I'm ready for anything they throw at me, and comes out hoping for a pass. (Implimenting Murphy's laws #6 "If you perceive that there are four possible ways in which a procedure can go wrong, and circumvent these, then a fifth way, unprepared for, will promptly develop.").
Also, I've gotten my Transmission Genetics midterm back (in which I studied quite substantially). Last week I came out of the midterm feeling quite confident that I didn't do too badly (although I did ran out of time at the last 8 marks question). Upon finding out the grade I got, I was quite shocked. A 60%???? HOW?? I guess there are some professors that you just can't understand what they want as an answer to a question. (Implementing Murphy's laws #5 "If anything simply cannot go wrong, it will anyway.").
To add icing to the cake, essential files that makes the computer run smoothly continue to be corrupted and deleted. I'm quite surprised that my computer can still boot up. (Implementing Quantization Revision of Murphy's Laws "Everything goes wrong all at once.").

Well THAT solved the mystery

Okay, I guess this is now easier to deal with. Apparently I forgot that I e mailed a copy of my discussion to my lab partner (so that he'd have some idea as to what to put in that section) along with the graphs (how I forgot that I gave him a copy of my discussion still baffles my mind). Since the results were the same (because he was my lab partner), he assumed that the discussion portion can be the same for the 2 people (he claims that it was that way for other courses). He thus copied and pasted my entire discussion section. Well, I guess this counts as a stress relief for me.

This is ridiculous!

How is this even possible? HOW???? In the history of my entire academic carreer, I have NEVER been accused of academic misconduct, until now. Just, HOW?????
How in the world would my lab partner's report be so similar in wording compared to mine, when I haven't even caught a GLIMPS of his report? How is this even possible when he hasn't even seen mine??
This is really stupid. Even more so, is the fact that there are enough groups that are accused to piss off the lab instructor. I can't speak on other people's behalf, but how in the world did I get accused of plagerism when I worked really hard and spent nights deprived of slumber over this stupid lab. I'm not about to settle for anything less than NOT GUILTY!
I guess I just have to be the king of unusual circumstances... I think I ought to raise hell for the next several days.

My beliefs

Oh fine, I guess there's no harm done in posting my beliefs. Well, a lot of it is posted on my site: www.geocities.com/takingovertheworldin3easysteps/index.html (beware. It has very disturbing and dark content left right and centre, even by my standards. It disturbes even some of my closest of friends. Please do not visit if you don't have a very tollerant mind. Above average won't cut it here).
Basic beliefs I have is not do onto others what you would like them do to you, but rather, take actions of which you believe would be most desirable. It would follow that you take account of the likely consequence of your actions into consideration. For instance, let's suppose you have an urge to go punch a guy. It would feel wonderful at first, but that guy might have friends who will beat you half to death the next day, so beating the guy up in the first place would not be a desirable action.
I guess you could say that I'm a consequentiallist, for being a believer that the ends justifies the means. However, I also believe that a road to hell is NOT paved with good intentions. If your intent is good, and the outcome is not good, then you are not guilty (no willful harmful mental intent). HOWEVER, if you make the same mistake over and over again, and cause bad outcome, then you are guilty on grounds of stupidity.
I do not believe in a final judge to say if you are good or not. I believe everyone has the capacity for that, and who better to judge you other than yourself? If you live a life and can honestly say "I have not committed acts against my moral principles (whatever they may be) which cannot be justified", then you have just lived a moral life. However, there's a catch. The moral principles must be YOUR'S (you must have thought critically about your beliefs). I can't stand authoritarianism. Sure you can agree with authoritative sourses such as the bible, but you must agree because you believe it is right, and not because it is the bible (or your mother, or the instructor, or someone you respect). I understand the second and this paragraph has smell, taste, and feel of relativism, and I understand the problems of the relativist theories. I know this part need to be worked on.
I do not believe in a heaven or hell, for I do not believe in eternal enlightenment or eternal damnation. I believe a conscious entity has the ability to change for better or for worse. For there to be a heaven, where you obtain eternal bliss, it would be as painful as eternal torment. This is because eternity of the same state offers no variation, and thus, no excitement. There is no drive for self improvement or to do anything, and thus existance is pointless. That being said, the other alternatives I can think of are death is the end, or reincarnation. Personally I'm more comfortable with the idea of reincarnation, for the 1st option has too much existential horror. I also like the idea of reincarnation because it offers a renewed drive for existance at every life/death cycle.
I believe that the universe runs in cycles. A cycle begins with the big bang, and ends with the big crunch. During the time between the big bang and big crunch, all the souls gather and have a festival. At the end of the festival, each soul would get a vote on who will be the next God. The one who is hated the most will be the one voted to hold that position, where he/she/it/other will have the tormentful task of regulating the flow of souls between the living and the dead for the duration of the next cycle.
Well, that's the basic synopse of what I believe. (Goodness, I hope all of those made logical sense and are to the point. I hate to be rambling on and on about useless stuff. I mean, rambling on about useless stuff and not getting to the point is you know, pointless. Personally I enjoy writings that are short and sweet. I find that many philosophical writings lack that virtue. They just go on and on for 50 pages trying to make one point. I mean seriously, we have better things to do in our lives than to listening to people pulling random flowery words out of their behind trying to prove a point, that in the end, people just gets tired of reading and give up. Or if they are forced into reading the stupid article, and end up dredding whatever subject the article is on. Seriously, how do those philosophers do it? I already ran out of useless junk to write).

Sin kills you in 3 turns.

Well, finally there's a slight break between midterms (nothing stresses you out more than a series of midterms and/or exams. Well, almost nothing). So far one of them went quite well (population genetics), while 2 of them are uncertain. Next order of business is to work on Lab Methods.
Course selection happened today. It went relatively smoothly. However, next semester is gonna hurt bad. Why am I taking 3 credits when 2.5 is all you need for a semester? You'd thought that I learned not to overload myself from highschool, but no. Well, it's either take the 3 credits of science courses (well, I could have taken 2.75, but seriously, if I could take the lab portion for Mammalian Physiology 2 for an extra .25 credits, why not?), or take some hardcore philosophy courses (Major Text in Philosophy) for my minor. Personally, I voted to avoid Major Text.
My cat seem to be slightly more active now. I guess the treatment is having some effect. However, her hair is super matty, and she has some sort of anemia. I guess at least her health is improving, and you can't go wrong with that.
Recently, the Campus Crusade for Christ posted a bunch of "Do you agree with Graydon" around campus. Yesterday, the opinions of Graydon (a 3rd year Zoology major) was posted on the school's paper (The Ontarion). I find it to be somewhat disturbing. Although I'm quite tollerant to most beliefs, I have difficulties accepting the idea that if you don't believe in Jesus, you face eternal damnation in hell (well, the article was slightly less agressive than that, but not by much). I cannot accept that you die because you sin (No! Sin kills you in 3 turns, courtasy of Final Fantasy X :D), and I cannot cope with the idea that you are born a sinner and you are to spend your life repenting. (To anyone who belong in any Christian religion that gets offended, don't. I haven't found an organized religion that I liked, including buddism, muslim, and christianity).
I know it's not proper to critisize without suggesting alternative, but that's too bad. It'll take too long for me to explain fully what I believe in. Needless to say, it's good to have your own personal religion, since there's a very high level of flexibility while providing you with a basic standard of moral principles.

Don't fix anything that isn't broken.

Firstly, I would like to take this opportunity to say that it would appear that my cat is recovering. She's taking Tapazole and has apparently gained weight from August. (Weird, I thought she has lost weight. Well, hopefully the test results will show good news tomorrow).

Several months ago, before the beginning of the semester, I decided to get a second hard drive for my computer, because it lacks storage space. I set it as my master drive, and installed windows 2k using a disk that my sister got from her co-worker. The whole process was rather annoying and difficult, and it didn't work the way I wanted it to. I then reset my old hard drive as the master drive, and all appear well (except for some minor annoyances). I then found out that if I was to set up windows from a copied disk, windows might start corrupting files. I now strongly suspect that's whats happening to my computer, for the copy of . Files are getting corrupted, resulting in windows running scandisk, and deleting the corrupt files. As a result, the computer is currently sluggish. Norton Antivirus can't find any virus on my computer, it currently can't run live update, adobe acrobat reader won't boot (and freeze web browser if I use it), Kazaa Lite won't start, my computer will at times mysteriously shut down, and sound device seem to be missing (horray for inability to play music files or any sounds). This is rather an annoying circumstance. Tech support at microsoft apparently costs money. Death to Microsoft! Death to whoever caused me this inconvenience. I hope you die a miserable horrible slow painful and lonely death!!!! (Unless they did it unintentionally, or is someone I know and care about).

I'm not letting you go no matter what.

It has been a couple of weeks since I returned home from university. It was not a very happy visit. My cat has not gotten better from her thyroid problem. This is a sad moment for me, because ever since my family has gotten a new cat, my older cat has been upset. Feeling unwanted, she often is isolated. She only slowly approaches me because I felt that my loyalty was with her. I understood her feeling of abandonment, and paid more attention to her than my younger cat.
In the past 1/2 year or so, she would sleep on top of me while I was sleeping, or crawl up into a ball at my lap when I was sitting. I don't know exactly when, but I have grown to love my older cat, and would do almost anything for her. I returned home this weekend to discover that the topic of euthanasia has turned up. This pains me a lot. I understand that my family's financial situation is dismal, but a part of having a pet is to devote yourself to them. Your pet is your friend and family. Euthanasia shouldn't even be an option unless there's no way to treat the sickness. You don't put your family member and friend down just because it is inconvenient to pay for their health. That's horrendous, even by my standards.
There's no way anyone can take my precious baby away from me. Even if I have to quit school to be able to pay for her treatment. Hopefully it won't come to that.